adoption ...thoughts of expections etc

what would my expections be for my child? abilty to wear me out...will test me....I expect it will take time for attachment and trust.
what would my expections be for myself as a parent? ...I expect myself to be a postive role model....I expect myself to do the best I can with parenting....
I think thats all for now.

thinking of adopting sibings ..at the most 2 kids.

sewing and writting/job

the sleeper that i made for my cousin (with much help from T) is now finished!!! thank you T! it took 6 months. now i can go on to more sewing..making clothes! i also made a little thing with sewing today! now on to writting....I'm writting a book right now. its probally going to be quite a long time..but i'm putting some of it in the Island parent(hopefully) I wonder how long its going to take? both projects.I have now been working for 9 months!

journey and resent thoughts

meanwhile...I went to the beach in Parksville and I had fun and tried to think of a song (made up by me) for my adopted child...even if I don't yet know the child. it is my promise as a mom. (when I am). Ididn't get very far...but I remmber thinking about Butterflies, I found 3 shells..2 of them kinda looked like butterflies and one looked like a beatiful flat one. Its like when my child is in a orphange...he or she is in a cacoon and when the child gets a family he/she turns into a caterpillar and then (through a lot of healing) a butterflie!