adoption ...thoughts of expections etc

what would my expections be for my child? abilty to wear me out...will test me....I expect it will take time for attachment and trust.
what would my expections be for myself as a parent? ...I expect myself to be a postive role model....I expect myself to do the best I can with parenting....
I think thats all for now.

thinking of adopting sibings ..at the most 2 kids.

sewing and writting/job

the sleeper that i made for my cousin (with much help from T) is now finished!!! thank you T! it took 6 months. now i can go on to more sewing..making clothes! i also made a little thing with sewing today! now on to writting....I'm writting a book right now. its probally going to be quite a long time..but i'm putting some of it in the Island parent(hopefully) I wonder how long its going to take? both projects.I have now been working for 9 months!

journey and resent thoughts

meanwhile...I went to the beach in Parksville and I had fun and tried to think of a song (made up by me) for my adopted child...even if I don't yet know the child. it is my promise as a mom. (when I am). Ididn't get very far...but I remmber thinking about Butterflies, I found 3 shells..2 of them kinda looked like butterflies and one looked like a beatiful flat one. Its like when my child is in a orphange...he or she is in a cacoon and when the child gets a family he/she turns into a caterpillar and then (through a lot of healing) a butterflie!

book: Flying Solo

I've been reading this book and is awsome! I would Recomend it to anyone on the journey to adopting as a single parent! it was exactly what i needed a story and tips.

learning Amharic and courage

going to the Libraiy today is definally on my "to-do List"....I have to pick up tape of Language I've been trying to learn (I've been mostly learning it on the compoutter).
a bible verse that fills me with courage is: joshua 1:9..." have I not commmanded you? Be strong and Courageous. do not be terrriffed, do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you whereever you go."

went to adoption agency today!!

Today i went to my adoption Agency and got some broceres and a info package that is helpful! so I can now go at it head first Yaa!...well almost. and finding some times when there are Challenges I can laugh about it (the income gst thing sent me a paper and on it...it said I am Divorced...and I'm Not and it was so hard at first to get through to them that all I could do was Laugh and tell others what it was that was frustrating.) so yes, I'm learning that. and read "Flying Solo" and thinking a lot.

update

theese days I'm learning to have a personal prioty list in my head and sticking to it and a written "to-do" list works quite well for things i need to do. ...which today is to do rest of annoying income papers(but on same time a oppertunity....to let them know i'm moving!) and maybe do work papers too. if I go to my adoption agencys fun day..I'll have to go to the one in Vancouver. I'm also trying to learn Amharic...so should my child speak that language i'll be able to commincate with him or her...and everyone else over there.