fun at lake and more

I had a lot of fun at lake with L & G & A about 3-4 weeks ago! I think my favorite part of it was when I was in the lake with my shoes on catching a frog ..it felt so neat! its like a hamster walking on your hand. and when G and me were trying to catch a fish..it was the highlight of my day!

a while ago, I started feeling seizurous so I had to be out of work for a while but I am now feeling much better! and able to work again! YAAAHOO!


and got out a bunch of parenting books at libraiy (one of which I've already read) but I do beive that while there so helpful I get so much more out of parenting cources (this includes hyperness) so going to take another parenting course when get oppertunity.

motherhood

this is a picture of the beach. waiting to be a mom is so hard for me right now...things like stickers on Van windows and on and on even bring a longing!

adoption ...thoughts of expections etc

what would my expections be for my child? abilty to wear me out...will test me....I expect it will take time for attachment and trust.
what would my expections be for myself as a parent? ...I expect myself to be a postive role model....I expect myself to do the best I can with parenting....
I think thats all for now.

thinking of adopting sibings ..at the most 2 kids.

sewing and writting/job

the sleeper that i made for my cousin (with much help from T) is now finished!!! thank you T! it took 6 months. now i can go on to more sewing..making clothes! i also made a little thing with sewing today! now on to writting....I'm writting a book right now. its probally going to be quite a long time..but i'm putting some of it in the Island parent(hopefully) I wonder how long its going to take? both projects.I have now been working for 9 months!

journey and resent thoughts

meanwhile...I went to the beach in Parksville and I had fun and tried to think of a song (made up by me) for my adopted child...even if I don't yet know the child. it is my promise as a mom. (when I am). Ididn't get very far...but I remmber thinking about Butterflies, I found 3 shells..2 of them kinda looked like butterflies and one looked like a beatiful flat one. Its like when my child is in a orphange...he or she is in a cacoon and when the child gets a family he/she turns into a caterpillar and then (through a lot of healing) a butterflie!

book: Flying Solo

I've been reading this book and is awsome! I would Recomend it to anyone on the journey to adopting as a single parent! it was exactly what i needed a story and tips.

learning Amharic and courage

going to the Libraiy today is definally on my "to-do List"....I have to pick up tape of Language I've been trying to learn (I've been mostly learning it on the compoutter).
a bible verse that fills me with courage is: joshua 1:9..." have I not commmanded you? Be strong and Courageous. do not be terrriffed, do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you whereever you go."